Black joy is electrifyingly beautiful, beautifully intense, intensely spiritual, spiritually cleansing. Makes you feel life is worth living. Black joy... black joy... where did you go black joy? Uplift your soul. Be love. And be wild. And be peace. And be war. All of it makes black joy so tangible. So heart palpitatingly transcendent. Transpiring from soul to soul, lights your face with a glow. You never know happiness until you see the exuberance of a disenfranchised body move jubilantly. Even though it be brief, like all things, tidal...transitory... the rapture is exhilaration at its highest peak. Black joy. Come back black joy. Come back
It doesn't matter how clear things are set out. No matter how many times (s)he protests, objects, holds the line of defense...
The truth is that the desires of the heart arise at the most inopportune, frantic moments.
It starts with appreciation. The connection. Then comes the longing.
The heart casually ruins platitudes of restriction, disassociation, and numbness with the surfacing realization, the sting of the heart that no longer just beats, but beats in love.
Beating in love for the person whom (s)he solemnly swore to never fall in love with.
Like a stone tossed into the riverbed, (s)he sinks to the bottom.
They say to (s)he, logic is
(If I had a Love Song...) My Love Song is You by EternalSolaceEssence, literature
Literature
(If I had a Love Song...) My Love Song is You
There's nothing and nowhere but a downward spiral from here.
Your kindness_ makes me warm inside.
Your thinly veiled pessimism_ makes me laugh.
Your smile_ somehow makes me feel immensely happy.
Your laugh_ so full makes me smile.
You body_ makes me weak with desire.
Your humor_ makes my tummy ache with laughter.
The sound of your voice_ makes my heart race, just knowing you're near to me.
And your eyes, your eyes_ always seem to be digging into my heart and soul.
And when you look at me when you think I'm not looking, you make me feel adored and adorned with tangible love. I love your eyes on me. The way they roam over my head as you put y
Greedy Devotions by EternalSolaceEssence, literature
Literature
Greedy Devotions
I pray for you.
I pray for you.
I prayed for you, hm... that just won't do.
I would say "I prayed for you," but I'd be lying because I still do.
I pray for you.
For you.
For you for me. Not just for you.
I pray you for me.
This is where dreams come to die a fiery death.
Tumbling from the top of my head, down to my heart and out of my chest.
Exploding like a Molotov cocktail.
The fire makes fast ruin of what was and soon there's nothing but ash.
The good wind takes care of sweeping away from me what was.
Now, it all lies in the past.
Let go and let live.
This is living. And this is loving.
Used up.
All used up.
Drunk up.
All drunk up.
The last time I loved, I used all of it.
I ripped down my own walls.
Smothered my own hesitation.
Cut off my own head of withdrawal and tossed it in.
Curbed my anxiety.
And lightened my overanalyzations.
Prayed the vast hole in my wall that led to my heart and mind wouldn't be taken for granted.
The love that came out escaped me. Untethered.
It's escaped permanently in everything it was and wasn't.
Everything that could have been, I hope it was.
I lost it and it won't come back.
It can't come back.
Cause I've refortified my walls and
NOTHING gets in.
And NOTHING gets out.
What's lost is lost.
Skinship in Black and Brown by EternalSolaceEssence, literature
Literature
Skinship in Black and Brown
Feel like you just found all the world's riches.
Roam over my brown and black mounds of flesh.
Stroke sensually.
Inside my plush.
Push.
The agony of a pleasure so distinct.
Marvel at the depth of this.
Entangle yourself with me.
Brown and black on brown and black.
A beautiful violence of creatures.
Inhale the sweet exhalations of passionate moans.
Lay your hand aside my face as the rhythms merge and evolve.
One.
And kiiiisss meeeee.
Plummeting in synchronicity.
Bodies creating effortlessly harmonious reciprocity.
Twist of face and growl.
Beautifully.
How perfectly these black and browns meet.
These black and brown bodies.
Why can't I stop crying?
The run of warm tears down my cheeks.
Why do I weep?
I feel freer than I've felt in quite some time.
Free of you.
Why does my soul cry?
It's supposed to be glorious.
I felt my feelings for you escape me.
Abandoned.
Why does my heart stir with this emotion?
The parting of your engrained image in my brain,
Singed and tattooed.
Why do I sob?
I can't stop.
Is my heart sad?
Am I sad?
Sad to have lost you.
Sad to not have been treasured.
Sad that you found me unsuitable for us to be we.
Or am I slowly building to rage?
What is this thing?
What are these feelings?
Why does the parting of old feelings b
Black joy is electrifyingly beautiful, beautifully intense, intensely spiritual, spiritually cleansing. Makes you feel life is worth living. Black joy... black joy... where did you go black joy? Uplift your soul. Be love. And be wild. And be peace. And be war. All of it makes black joy so tangible. So heart palpitatingly transcendent. Transpiring from soul to soul, lights your face with a glow. You never know happiness until you see the exuberance of a disenfranchised body move jubilantly. Even though it be brief, like all things, tidal...transitory... the rapture is exhilaration at its highest peak. Black joy. Come back black joy. Come back
It doesn't matter how clear things are set out. No matter how many times (s)he protests, objects, holds the line of defense...
The truth is that the desires of the heart arise at the most inopportune, frantic moments.
It starts with appreciation. The connection. Then comes the longing.
The heart casually ruins platitudes of restriction, disassociation, and numbness with the surfacing realization, the sting of the heart that no longer just beats, but beats in love.
Beating in love for the person whom (s)he solemnly swore to never fall in love with.
Like a stone tossed into the riverbed, (s)he sinks to the bottom.
They say to (s)he, logic is
(If I had a Love Song...) My Love Song is You by EternalSolaceEssence, literature
Literature
(If I had a Love Song...) My Love Song is You
There's nothing and nowhere but a downward spiral from here.
Your kindness_ makes me warm inside.
Your thinly veiled pessimism_ makes me laugh.
Your smile_ somehow makes me feel immensely happy.
Your laugh_ so full makes me smile.
You body_ makes me weak with desire.
Your humor_ makes my tummy ache with laughter.
The sound of your voice_ makes my heart race, just knowing you're near to me.
And your eyes, your eyes_ always seem to be digging into my heart and soul.
And when you look at me when you think I'm not looking, you make me feel adored and adorned with tangible love. I love your eyes on me. The way they roam over my head as you put y
Greedy Devotions by EternalSolaceEssence, literature
Literature
Greedy Devotions
I pray for you.
I pray for you.
I prayed for you, hm... that just won't do.
I would say "I prayed for you," but I'd be lying because I still do.
I pray for you.
For you.
For you for me. Not just for you.
I pray you for me.
This is where dreams come to die a fiery death.
Tumbling from the top of my head, down to my heart and out of my chest.
Exploding like a Molotov cocktail.
The fire makes fast ruin of what was and soon there's nothing but ash.
The good wind takes care of sweeping away from me what was.
Now, it all lies in the past.
Let go and let live.
This is living. And this is loving.
Used up.
All used up.
Drunk up.
All drunk up.
The last time I loved, I used all of it.
I ripped down my own walls.
Smothered my own hesitation.
Cut off my own head of withdrawal and tossed it in.
Curbed my anxiety.
And lightened my overanalyzations.
Prayed the vast hole in my wall that led to my heart and mind wouldn't be taken for granted.
The love that came out escaped me. Untethered.
It's escaped permanently in everything it was and wasn't.
Everything that could have been, I hope it was.
I lost it and it won't come back.
It can't come back.
Cause I've refortified my walls and
NOTHING gets in.
And NOTHING gets out.
What's lost is lost.
Skinship in Black and Brown by EternalSolaceEssence, literature
Literature
Skinship in Black and Brown
Feel like you just found all the world's riches.
Roam over my brown and black mounds of flesh.
Stroke sensually.
Inside my plush.
Push.
The agony of a pleasure so distinct.
Marvel at the depth of this.
Entangle yourself with me.
Brown and black on brown and black.
A beautiful violence of creatures.
Inhale the sweet exhalations of passionate moans.
Lay your hand aside my face as the rhythms merge and evolve.
One.
And kiiiisss meeeee.
Plummeting in synchronicity.
Bodies creating effortlessly harmonious reciprocity.
Twist of face and growl.
Beautifully.
How perfectly these black and browns meet.
These black and brown bodies.
Why can't I stop crying?
The run of warm tears down my cheeks.
Why do I weep?
I feel freer than I've felt in quite some time.
Free of you.
Why does my soul cry?
It's supposed to be glorious.
I felt my feelings for you escape me.
Abandoned.
Why does my heart stir with this emotion?
The parting of your engrained image in my brain,
Singed and tattooed.
Why do I sob?
I can't stop.
Is my heart sad?
Am I sad?
Sad to have lost you.
Sad to not have been treasured.
Sad that you found me unsuitable for us to be we.
Or am I slowly building to rage?
What is this thing?
What are these feelings?
Why does the parting of old feelings b
The scent of longing
in this glass -
and your skin,
petals rubbing raw;
the sound of water
on the glass-
your face turning away
as you lick your lips
and my tongue
traces wine
across your hips.
That hush of want
disappearing in the soft crush
of morning gone astray.
It's like falling. Until you realised you've only medicated yourself with an alcoholic beverage.
Then it's just crashing. Realising you can't forget everything.
In dreams:
I've sampled your peach-shaped mouth.
There's sweetness on every surface,
a sip in a corner
a pull in another
But your mouth, open and full,
invites a tilted brow with its curiosity.
It's a new sort of fullness
inexperienced and nuanced
new moons
daisy buds cupping water
waiting to be sipped.
Just Words on the Page by sometimesmaybeme, literature
Literature
Just Words on the Page
it is moonlight
and dim light
and the scratch of a pen
it is bass drum
and rhythm
and the salt of new tears
it is goodbyes
and the highest highs
and burning red cheeks
it is nothing
yet everything
just words on a page
And she whispered pretty words into his skin,
like dynamite pressed into the perfect shape of the sand, all sliding
and waiting for a healer.
And he licked away her mouth-stricken imperfection
like maybe she didn't mean to pour suicide in the valley
of her breasts, maybe for once she just wanted someone to taste her.
And they swore it was the last time,
as if swearing were a new means to confess a dying man's need
for one last pull of the drawer, one last peek inside his lust for meat.
And we watched as they danced together,
Two bruised bodies wrapped in eel flesh,
Crushed as most things are crushed:
like seashells under virgin b
It seems like you should know
The way the hours drag
And the pang of waking
With still no word
It seems like you would know
The way waiting hurts
And that the silence
Cuts like a knife
It seems like you could know
The way to make me smile
How a word would do
To make me feel closer to you over the miles
But even when you wish to be silent you still find ways to make me smile
Your memory smothers me
Like a blanket over a fire
You can't save me now
As I drown in this reverie
Can nobody hear me?
Or am I silently begging
For someone to notice
That I am no longer strong?
I want so badly to feel your arms around me
To open my eyes and see yours staring back
Feel the comfort of your body against mine
You gently kissing my forehead...
But I'm too far gone
I would be lying if I said I didn't miss you
But I know we're not good for each other
I know going back to you
Would be setting myself up for pain
You should know that this was a very difficult decision to make
Choosing to finally let you go
To be on
It doesn't matter how clear things are set out. No matter how many times (s)he protests, objects, holds the line of defense...
The truth is that the desires of the heart arise at the most inopportune, frantic moments.
It starts with appreciation. The connection. Then comes the longing.
The heart casually ruins platitudes of restriction, disassociation, and numbness with the surfacing realization, the sting of the heart that no longer just beats, but beats in love.
Beating in love for the person whom (s)he solemnly swore to never fall in love with.
Like a stone tossed into the riverbed, (s)he sinks to the bottom.
They say to (s)he, logic is
Unrequited love = infatuation... #ihadtowriteittoseeittobelieveit ...? Romantics. We turn everything into a soap opera, don't we? *Shrugs* Guess it's good for literary purposes.
You asked me why I never say no to you. Its because I want you. And in any way you come to me I’d accept - I realized- my heart- it wanted you at any cost. Knowing you and that you aren’t with anyone- but with me, enjoying me, was enough. I fell for you because of your heart and your mind. I admire you. Your smile, humor intellect. I am in love with your melanin and I enjoy all of you. I feel a synchronicity and place of ease, enjoyment, care and interest when we are together- in each other’s presence. I wanted so badly for you to feel the same. As that one guy said it; you’re just not into me. Go figure.
Experiencing